This too shall pass

I trusted my gut once and I was right... Why not trust it again when it's knocking on my door... Not everything is perfection.. Who said that? We are humans and we all make mistakes... Some are just worst than others. Some are just ... Ah idk this feeling is so unexplainable at the moment that I need to just breathe..... in ...1.2.3.4....out.1.2.3.4..... Im trying.... I really am... It only happened once why would it happen again... Right? Wrong! It can happen again... I'm just not sure of it... Sighh maybe i'm just making up things in my head... Maybe i'm just bored and want a little fight... Maybe its real! I'm praying this is all just a fake and my instinct / gut is wrong... Please be wrong...